1. Answer this: If you were certain your life would end in 30 days, what would be your biggest regret? Why?
2. Analyze this: What area of your life are you suffering from Someday Syndrome? (SS=one day, when, if only)
3. Realize this: Today IS your Someday!
4. Choose this: What metaphor would describe your life if you were fully awake and engaged?
5. Find this: Find a symbol to represent your metaphor and post it somewhere to remind you.
My biggest regret would be that I always seem to be second guessing myself. How many times have I failed to seize an oppurtunity because I let my dual brained nature rationalize the possibilities? How many negative or painful consequences could I have avoided? How many lost moments with my older children who are now adults.
MY time always is impacted by the SS. I will have the family history documented as far back as possible. Someday. I will write enough to support my family, or at least enough that I don’t have to work outside the home. Someday. I will take time for myself. Someday. I will have a hugely popular and well read blog. Heh, yeah, Someday.
There is a scene in Shawshank Redemption where Andy Dufresne escapes from prison by crawling through 500 yards of sewage and comes out the other side, standing in the middle of a drainage ditch, and raises his hands, and looks to the sky with his eyes closed, with the rain washing the filth from his skin and clothes. That is the key moment in a movie that has more then it’s share of symbolic moments. I’d like to think that when I stop second guessing myself and I stay focused on ME, and what I need to do for me, separate from my family and my home…then it’ll be like the rain, washing the fear that often reeks and poisons the soul, from my skin.
Hmmm..that almost sounded profound. Or perhaps that is my internal critic second guessing what I just wrote. Tough, internal critic. I’m posting this. If it moves someone else, great….if not, oh well…I’m not going to second guess this one.